well i kinda found out that my patience has been running out more and more easily, i tend to hurt people without meaning to. take for example: 1) i was walking along a street, mind filled with bullshit from school. i enter a shop looking for a packet of sweets i want. shopkeeper greets and says:" good evening sir." i just ignore. i searched high and low for that particular sweet to no avail while the shopkeeper breathes down my neck wanting to help. "Do u need help sir?" came the request. "erm, no i'm quite sure i'm fine." was the response. i walked round the shop twice without finding what i want. A similar question was asked, "are u sure u...", "No." i cut her off, " i'm fine." and headed for the exit. just before the exit the shopkeeper greeted me with a goodbye," thank-cute and have a nice day sir.." I was astounded. Who on earth says "thank-cute" anymore (except chi-na pocks)? i walked past her with a hand up gesturing thanks (well,not really), turned my head in her direction and muttered," Don't...tell me what to do." I didn't know if the shopkeeper heard me but i certainly was rude enough. she didn't deserve my behaviour. i kinda felt bad afterwards.
2) this girl called K.Y. in my class. K.A.Y.P.O. K.Y.'s just a short form. irritates everyone in class. i don't usually suan her for nothing but when she chooses to K.A.Y.P.O. with the wrong person, i tell her off immediately without delay. for example: me:"sakina, how to find the drug concentration in blood plasma?" K.Y. (instead of sakina):"orh...u must..." me (interrupting):"i dun givvashit...just shut ur mouth and do ur work." K.Y. (tiam tiam)...
3) friend owes me $10. i give him a call asking when he's going to return cuz i'm broke for the week. *ring ring* friend:"wa-s-up?" me:"yo brother, how's school?" friend:" fyne, lesson today suc..." me:" okok, shut up shut up... u owe me 10 bucks. when pay?" friend:" end-of-the-week-can?" me:"alright"
See i hate to beat around the bush. I prefer getting straight to the point. I dunno when i've become so rude towards others. Maybe cuz i've been mixing with the wrong people like my older brother and some church friends.. haha... well, i really do wanna change. hope i can tho..